Friday, October 25, 2013

New Stuff from Sephora

Ok enough talk about stupid shit that no one cares about like higher education and exercise. I know what you're here for-the makeup. Don't worry babe, I got you. I just ordered some really overpriced crap and I've been super excited to tell you all about it.

You know I talk about makeup a lot, but it's been a while since I've made a big Sephora purchase. I even held out in New York, in probably the most beautiful Sephora that exists. The thing about that store is that really, you could want everything. And shit ain't cheap. You have to make wise decisions, unless you want to give up everything else you have and live in cardboard box (albeit with an incredible makeup collection-which sort of sounds like an alright option). Anytime I go to Sephora or shop online, I pick out about double what I afford and end up putting half of it back. It's a painful decision making process, which I've spent more time on than I did choosing what to go to college for(seriously).

 This time I bought 3 things: one is a new product that I just felt I had to have, one I've been thinking about for a while, and one that I've decided is a must have in my daily makeup routine. That sort of describes the criteria for all my Sephora purchases: New and Excited, Long-Coveted, or Staple Item. Let's just get right into it:

1. Urban Decay Vice 2 Palette ($68): I need everyone to do me a favour. If I buy any more eyeshadow in the next, say 3 months (I'm not even going to try for 6), call my mom and tell her that her daughter has lost all control. She's the only person who scares me enough to stop me. I really have way too much eyeshadow This palette(which was just released recently) really spoke to me though. It said "Buy me, sucker"- and I listened. I was drawn to it because it has a lot of shadows that are different from what I already own (about 6000 neutrals). I wouldn't say this is a great purchase if you don't have a lot of makeup-not enough practical shades for every day use. But I've heard very good reviews and I am happy to welcome it into my home.

2. Hourglass Ambient Lighting Powder in Diffused Light($52)- This is one of the most overpriced single pieces of makeup I've ever purchased. But I'm kind of at a point where I have enough foundation and blush and every day stuff like that, so I feel justified (sort of) in buying a few more unique things. This is finishing powder that is supposed to give you a glow without being sparkly or shiny like a highlight. Yeah, I don't know. It could be totally useless. But it was so expensive that I'm going to tell mysef it's a miracle product, regardless of its' actual performance.

3. Urban Decay All Nighter Setting Spray ($35)- I've written about this spray before. I had only purchased the smaller bottles before because it felt like a lot to spend for the full size. But I've gone through two of those and decided I'm totally sold on this product. It really helps your makeup stay in place and keeps your face matte without adding an extra layer of makeup.
On a side note, Urban Decay is really starting to stand out as one of my favourite makeup brands. Their eyeshadow primer the best thing I've ever bought at Sephora. I love their eyeshadows, and their new Revolution Lipstick is the best non-Mac lipstick I've tried. I don't know what I'm getting at here. If you're gonna be dumb like me and spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup, Urban Decay is a good bet.

Marc Jacobs Honey VIB Reward (500 points) Sephora has a rewards card where you get points for all your purchases and you can redeem them for various cosmetic bonuses. I've been hoarding my VIB points for a long time, to the point that I had well over 1000, even though the biggest rewards are 500 points. I just felt like I had to wait and use them for the perfect thing. Kind of like when you hold onto a gift card for a long time because you don't want to waste it. This seemed like a good use of my hard earned points though. I love Marc Jacobs fragrances-I have Daisy and Lola(thanks Courtney!). Honey is the newest edition to the lineup. This gift pack came with a mini rollerball, a lotion and a little pouch for.....I don't know what, maybe a 20 bag and some papers. I'm looking forward to trying the fragrance out.

Mini Buxom Sculpted Lash Marscara (free)- This was from some other online promo that was going on. I always try to time my online Sephora orders with some sort of promotion, because they have lots that exclusive online. A friend of mine recommended Buxom mascara to me, so I thought this was a good way to try it out. And check out its' crazy S-shaped wand. Maybe it will be a miracle worker. I'm still really happy with my Revlon Lash Potion, and not really looking for a new mascara. But I'm down to try one for free.

So that's all of it. I have been eagerly awaiting this all week. And now it's over, and I have nothing to live for. Just kidding. Christmas is coming, and I am really looking forward to all the receiving I'll be doing.

As always, thank you for reading, and supporting my gross spending habits. Also, if you're interested I started an instagram just for this blog. That way I can post all I want about makeup and stuff like that without annoying my male followers. It's ruthandglory. So add it or not, I'm easy (not in that way, usually).

Sunday, October 20, 2013

You need to stop acting lazy: Get back to the Gym

I generally don't get very deep on this blog. Like most people in their late 20's, years of disappointing relationships and bad life choices have left me emotionally stunted, and I prefer to keep things pretty surface. In the words of one of my favourite YouTubers Daily Grace: "Repress....all of it."

Every once in while though, some feelings creep in, and I am compelled to talk about something with a bit more depth than the products I'm currently wasting my money on to feel pretty. At least to pass the time until my recent Sephora order shows up.

September was a bit of a rough month for me. Ok nothing really terrible happened. But as a citizen of the First World I reserve the right to get bummed out sometimes because life is hard. During my brief stint of self pity, I kind of fell off the fitness wagon. I hardly went to the gym at all for almost the entire month. I think this happens to a lot of people when they're not feeling their chipper selves (although no one has ever accused me of being chipper). And it makes sense-you just get down in the shitter and lose your motivation. But then it just becomes a cycle of shit: you feel too bummed to drag your ass to the gym, but not going to the gym makes you more bummed out.
(The excessive amount of alcohol you're drinking to numb the pain probably isn't helping turn things around either, but hey, this isn't AA.)

I never let myself stay down for too long. In the last couple weeks I've forced myself back into my gym routine. I'm amazed at how quickly I feel better-about everything-when I'm working out regularly. It has literally never failed me. Booze as therapy is pretty hit and miss: it's either the best time of your life, or ends up in a shame spiral of lying down in the shower and dry heaving in the middle of the street on your way to work (not that I would know, personally). But going to the gym makes you feel better every single time.

On the other hand, I think it's ok to take a gym break once in while. It's taken me a long time to feel that way. I used to freak out and get really mad at myself if I even missed more than a couple days. But that's not healthy either. Sometimes life comes at you and you need to make something other than tight buns your top priority. Sometimes when everything feels like it's going wrong, it's nice to just take that pressure off yourself. But you need to know when it's time to kick yourself in the ass and get back to the gym.

Does anybody sew?

I think I've told you before that I've been working out for a long time-10 years at the same gym now. So for me it's become part of my identity that I'm not willing to give up just because I'm in a rut. I've created a support system for myself because my friends and family know I care about fitness. They (unintentionally) motivate me when they ask how the gym has been lately and I haven't been all week. Even if you work out alone like I do, it's good to have other people to hold you accountable to your fitness goals.

But still, none of those people can actually make it happen for you. You have to make the move yourself. And that's true whether you've been working out for 10 years or you've never been in your life. You have to be your own drill sergeant sometimes. In some masochistic way it sometimes feels good to just lay in bed and feel bad for yourself. And if it doesn't feel good, it's definitely easy. But things aren't going to get better from there. You have to be the one to put your spandex on and just get your ass to the gym.

Thatta girl

I am kind of thankful that I fell off my game last month. It reminded me how great fitness is for me both physically and mentally. Sometimes I focus so much on that physical aspect of it, that I forget how good it makes me feel. I spent some time in September marathon watching Friday Night Lights, living off rice cakes and coffee and feeling like life sucks. But I did that to myself, and I got myself out of it. One week of my normal fitness routine and I felt completely better-I couldn't even tell you what was so bad in the first place. Life happens and you have to keep trucking through. And if you need something more to motivate you, just think about Jennifer Aniston. That's what I always do in times of trouble.

As an aside: Gym Makeup: Someone recently asked me to talk about makeup at the gym. I wanted to address it, but didn't think it warranted it's own post because I don't think you should wear makeup at the gym. In my last post I mentioned that I never leave the house without makeup, and that is true. But when I go to the gym I wear the absolute minimum I need to be able to make eye contact with the person at the front desk and not feel ashamed. Concealer, a bit of powder to set it and maybe fill in my eyebrows, that's it. I've gone with more makeup on and when I broke a sweat, it looked awful and my foundation ran into my eyes. It's really the time to let go of vanity(while you work on your physique, motivated by more vanity).

If you see someone you know on your way to or from the gym, just tell them where you're going. I feel like if you look like crap, but you tell someone you're going to work out, it plays some sort of mental trick on them and you automatically look a lot better. Same goes for if you're holding a giant water bottle. Try it.

Sunday, October 13, 2013

End of the Week Roundup: Products that disappointed, Ipsy Glam Bag, & No Makeup on a Bad Skin Day

Is Sunday the end of the week of the beginning of the week? I'm not sure. As I've told you before, I find basic day to day life quite difficult. The other day I hit my head on a door AND a wall, at separate times. Knowing the order of the days of the week is kind of beyond me. Anyway, I digress.

Happy Thanksgiving! I want to say that I am so thankful to anyone who reads this. One of my most recent entries has been viewed 112 times so far. I know that's a very small number in internet terms, but on a personal level it's really cool. I write this blog for my own enjoyment-I try to not to be very self promotey(that's a word). But I really love it when anyone sends me a message on Facebook or asks me questions in person about anything on my blog. It goes a long way towards validating my superificial pursuits. If there is ever a topic that anyone wants me to write about- whether it's makeup or fitness or really anything else, please let me know. Now that I know at least a few people are reading, I'd love your input.

I don't have a specific topic to write about today, so I thought I'd just share a bunch of stuff that I've thought of this week. My Ipsy Glam Bag showed up a few days ago, which is always exciting. Ipsy is a beauty product subscription service. For $15 a month I get 5 products mailed to me. The last few have been really good selections of products I've actually used. This month was great too:

September's Bag contained: Sexy Hair Spray Clay (which I tried and didn't like. I just prefer a lighter hold hairspray I think), H2O+ Face Oasis Hydrating Treatment(I'll get to that in a minute), Ofra Lipgloss Plumper in Sultry(no complaints), Nourish Organic Coconut and Argan Body Lotion(it's alright but has a sickly sweet smell), and Zoya Nail Polish in Mason(I might use it).

So all around pretty good. The Face Oasis thing is pretty cool:

It's a moisturizer but it's like a gel. I like it and have been using it for a few days. I love getting skincare products from Ipsy. I don't know if I'd actually buy this stuff, but I am glad to have it.

And talking about skincare is a good lead in to the next part of this post. I want to post something a little scary: A photo of myself with no makeup. And I don't mean "no makeup", I mean  no makeup (you know the difference, right?). I've seen a lot of beauty bloggers do it and I think it's a really good thing to show people. I recently had someone tell me I have nice skin, and I want to clear up the confusion. I don't have nice skin. I'm just good at faking it.

I did take this on a good hair day-gotta give myself something ya know?

I even took this photo with the front-facing camera on my iPhone so it would be better quality and you'd be able to see my zits and dark circles in full detail(and get a little peek of the mess in my bathroom). I know it's kind of a trend on Instagram to post #nomakeup photos so that people can tell you how great you look without it. That's not what I'm going for. I just want to show you what I'm really working with-and that it's nothing exceptional.
I also think this little exercise was really good for me. I do not leave the house without makeup, I really don't. And most of the time I wear a lot of it. I think I get so used to seeing myself in full face paint that I think I look weird or bad without it. I feel like it's good for me to look at myself without any makeup on to remember what I actually look like, and realize that I could probably get by with less than 4 colours of eyeshadow every day.

Just kidding, I need that shit. And now that I have this blog, I feel that it's my duty to keep cake facing it up and reporting back on what's good on what's not.

On which note I want to tell you about 2 products I've picked up recently that I haven't been impressed with.

Mac Fix + Spray-I just bought this recently, and for me it's a dud. You're supposed to be able to use it for a few different things, including to soften up an overpowdered look. But I found that when you spray it on after applying makeup, it totally messes it up. Like makes streaks in your foundation and blush. So you might not look like you put on too much powder, but you'll be a mess anyway. Maybe I'm just not using it right, but I was really not impressed. My Urban Decay setting spray doesn't mess up my makeup at all.

Anastasia Beverly Hills Brow Wiz- This one is kind of love/hate. It is a good product-the best brow pencil I've used. But see that little nugget that looks like mouse shit? That's a piece of the pencil-it's broken into pieces that fall out every time I use it. This thing cost $27- I feel like it should stay in one piece. Then again, maybe this is just what I deserve for spending that kind of money to draw on fake eyebrows everyday.......hmmm.

I know this post was kind of all over the place. I really really really want to buy some new things at Sephora, but I also really want to pay for school(notice only one "really there-don't worry, Sephora will get some of my money soon). In the meantime I don't want anyone to think I'm slacking in the makeup department. I still think about it all the time-and I am not ashamed to talk about it at length. Like I said, if anyone has requests for future posts, I'd love your input. We'll be like a bunch of pals having a sleepover talking about girly things. And if you fall asleep first, I'm definitely gonna draw a dick on your face. But I'd use really nice lipstick to do it.

Thank you for reading and Happy Thanksgiving!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Going to School as an Adult Kinda Blows

We don't need no education
It may seem that I live in a world filled with only eyeshadow, perfume rollerballs and free weights. And listen, that sounds like a dream life that I'd love to be living. But outisde of superficial pursuits, I occasionally do other things. I have spent much of my twenties in postsecondary education of some sort. The timeline goes like this: college, university, college, university-for a total of five full years, one diploma and about 60% of a degree, which I am currently working toward very part time. There's been a couple false starts and a few years off in there somewhere. I have not taken a traditional path in my schooling. Because I kind of hate it.

I haven't liked school since I was about 12. I was lucky to get through high school. Not because I struggled with any of the subject matter-, but becasue I skipped so many classes. I always got that speech "Ruth, you're so smart, why don't you apply yourself?" I failed ceramics. Let me repeat that. I failed ceramics. I had a great time smoking cigarettes on the sidewalk outside of school though, and running away from the Vice-Principal, that was fun too. In my last year of high school, I at least went to class and ended up graduating with honours, but I didn't even bother to apply to college or university. I just didn't feel like it. I only wanted to work, and party with my friends. And for a while, that's what I did.

After a few years of working in fast food restaurants and shitty retail stores, I started to realize that my dream of becoming famous for absolutely no reason wasn't coming true, and I could be looking at a lifetime of minimum wage mall jobs. So I deciced to go to college. By that time I was really into working out, which had taught me a lot about discipline and dedication. I transferred those skills to school, and ended up doing really well. I even won an award that first year. But then I got bored and decided I wanted to go to University. Then I did a year of that, and dropped out(out of boredom again) and took a few more years off. Then I back to college, and actually stuck with it, mostly because I didn't want to NOT finish again, and earned a diploma. And THEN I went back to university, where I could only stomach a year of full time classes. So now I'm working a job I like, and doing one class at a time. It's an alright arrangement for me, but I still can't get over my distaste towards Academia. I'm not stupid, I realize that eventually having a degree might be an asset. But I've got some problems with the whole thing.

Whoa, I am so sorry I did not really mean for my whole backstory to come out here. But I guess it provides a framework and gives me some credibilty. I'm not bitching about something I know nothing about, or that I haven't given a fair chance.

Here are just a few of the problems I have with school-some of these are just specific to being an older student. And come on now, don't take me too seriously. I spend my free time thinking and writing about $30 blush.

1. I can't afford it. I'm not the poorest person in the world, but daaaaaaammmmmnnnnnnn school is expensive! I've accumulated some debt over the years, and I don't want more. As an older student, I have seen many friends graduate and struggle with extreme debt from school, and I'm scared of that. Especially after all the episodes of Til Debt Do Us Part I've watched. I do not want Gail up in my house cutting up my credit cards in the future. I'm trying to pay for the rest of school myself and that sucks. The thought of debt is even scarier because......

2. doesn't guarantee a high paying job. Again, I've seen a lot of my friends go through school and end up in jobs similar to mine. Ok, I am a manager at my work, and I don't know that I would have been capable of that before I went to school and learned a thing or two about time management and deadlines and all that kind of stuff. But my schooling has only been indirectly beneficial to my career. It's scary to think that I could finish this degree a whole lot poorer, and maybe not have any more job prospects than I have now.

3. I hate Academic Elitism. I have always been book smart. And that's cool. But I am a firm believer that book smart is only one kind of smart. And not necessessarily the most important kind. I just hate the attitude that some (not all!) academics seem to have that going to university makes them better than the rest of the population. When your toilet gets backed up, you're gonna need a plumber, not a professor.I feel like people at school kind of forget that.

4. Being in school with a bunch of young people really makes you face what a horrible bitter person you've become. I'm awful! My inner monologue at school sounds like this "Look at all these little shits. Wearing their school colours. Oh, everythings so happy and wonderful isn't it? Nice sweatpants everybody, glad you're feeling so casual. You don't know anything about the real world you idiots." Calm down Ruth, they're just enjoying their lives. I'm probably just pissed that they're all making better life choices than I ever did.

5. Going to school as an adult is lonely. Working in the bar and restaurant industry I've been extremely spoiled to almost always be among people I consider friends. My job is all about interacting with people. And despite all my YouTube watching and blogging, I'm really social. I'm not used to being in a environment where I feel like I don't fit in. And that is the reality of it-it's not like I'm in high school and just think I don't fit in. I actually am close to 10 years older than most of my classmates, and  have a whole different set of priorities.  I try to be really nice to the older ladies who serve coffee in the student centre because I feel like I have more in common with them than anyone else. They're probably calling everyone Little Shits in their heads too.

6. I just have a general problem with the whole institution. I'll blame this on going to too many punk shows as a teenager. But really, the whole thing just pisses me off. It's supposed to be a place of higher learning, but you have to do everything the way THEY want you to do it. I think I just have a general problem with authority and that's my own fault. But when I'm told that I have to reference things a certain way, or write the way everyone else does or whatever it is, I get pissed. I'm paying a lot of money to be there and I want to do things MY way. I don't like the feeling that an institution is trying to mould me, and I feel like I'm always up in arms against it. Like I said this is my own fault and I'm probably just being contrary for the sake of it. But still.

And now let me make a confession. I think the whole reason that I'm writing this is that I have a midterm in two days. Any student past or present knows that when it's time to study, you're gonna get creative with your procrastination. The truth is that I am very thankful that I have the opportunity to get an education-I know that many people are never given that chance. But I have some issues with the whole thing. And quite a few chapters of an anthropology text  I should be reading right now.

And for anyone who just wants to hear about makeup, I took a photo of most of my blushes today. I think it's a good illustration of why I need to think about things other than makeup to write about. I have a problem.
No seriously, this is shameful.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Makeup Shopping in NYC

Note: I set up a Twitter account for my blog, so I can tweet about makeup and stuff like that without annoying all my male friends on my personal account. Follow @ruthandglory

I spent this past weekend in New York City with my Mom and sister. Have you guys ever heard that rule where if you cheat when you're in a different area code, it doesn't count? Well, I think I feel that way about shopping-doesn't count when you're away from home, right? I anticipated that I would spend a lot of money in NYC.
But something crazy happened-I hardly bought anything! I'm kind of at a point where I don't really need any more makeup(understatement alert!). I'm probably not going to stop, but I at least want to try not to buy products that are similar to what I already own. So I think I was hoping that I would find tons of unique stuff in NYC that I can't get at home, which would add further reason to overspend, along with my area code theory. But I really didn't. It was all pretty much the same as what we have here in Canada. Even though The Sephora on Fifth Avenue was beautiful enough to be a wedding venue, it had all the same products that I'd find here.
I'd get married to an Urban Decay Palette
Actually everywhere we went, the setups were disgustingly beautiful. Saks Fifth Avenue is the most depressing place I've even been. Holding an Alexander McQueen clutch in your hand and not leaving the store with it(unless you're up for a very fast run)-I don't think that's a loss a gal gets over too quickly. But the store was full of beautiful things to look at. And cry over.
Chanel Perfume at Saks

I did find one store in Times Square that was really exciting, and affordable(ish). Inglot is a brand I've heard about on YouTube, but never actually come across. I don't know that much about them, but they have a line of build your own makeup palettes called the "Freedom System" that is the stuff dreams are made of (if you like to keep your dreams fairly pathetic, as I do).

They give you a magnetic board to shop with and pick out your own colours of eyeshadow, blush, face powders and lipsticks available in different size palettes. Once you've picked out your colours on the board, you just take it up to the counter and pay for your selection, which they give to you in individual boxes for you to assemble in the corresponding palette. This kind of thing makes me feel like I am extremely simple minded. I don't know what it is about all these little squares of colours that makes me lose my mind. I wanted to eat them. I managed not to ingest any at all, and only purchase 4 eyeshadow colours and one palette to case them. I think the full set here was about $40.

I'd been wanting some orange shadow for a bit, so this seemed like a good choice. I didn't particularly need the light or dark colours, but what was I going to do, only buy two? I don't think so. I could have bought a ton at this store, but I really need curb my eyeshadow habit. Which brings me to one of my only other beauty related purchases from the trip:

Oops. This adorable little 8-pan palette from Maybelline called "Sunbaked Neutrals" is one of the few things I found that I hadn't seen anywhere in Canada. One of my favourite YouTubers EmilyNoel83 has mentioned this one a few times recently. And, because I've deluded myself into thinking these internet people are my trusted friends, I wanted to get it. Honestly there isn't a colour in this palette that I don't already have somewhere else. But it was fairly cheap, and I was feeling desperate to find makeup that I couldnt get back home.

One more thing I picked up was a hairbrush. My salon-manager sister was harping on me for "brushing" my hair with a comb. So then I made fun of her loafers, and she called me annoying and I called her boring, and then we played nice for a bit because it was my Mom's birthday weekend (love you, Anna). But she was right about the brush thing. Bitch.

This thing is called a Tangle Teezer. It's supposed to be good for brushing your tangles out without ripping chunks of hair from your scalp. As you can see there's no handle, you just hold it in the palm of your hand. I don't know, it seems alright. I have shitty hair that breaks and doesn't grow no matter what I do. This doesn't seem to be making it worse.

So that was really all I got in terms of anything beauty related on this trip. I love New York, but this is kind of similar to what happened last time I went there. I budgeted and planned to go buck wild shopping, but ended up coming home with very little. There's just SO much to buy there. And most of what you really want is stuff that you could never conceivably afford, unless you want to sell all your possessions and move back in with your parents for a year or two. And, you know, now that I'm thinking about that McQueen clutch.....we had a pretty good weekend Ma, what do you say?